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No Drinking in July 2015
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 sblair2010
August 28, 2015, 2:32 PM
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| Onservation: I read once that you can picture addiction as this little angry selfish man in your head who doesn't give a shit about you. 60 days ago he was front and center in my mind SCREAMING at me every chance he got to get me to drink, and laughing as he watched my life fall apart. I've tuned him out for over 60 days now, and today he is huddled up in the corner of my mind and his voice is soft and weak. He has given up on screaming and his presence is almost non existent. | |
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sblair2010
August 3, 2015, 3:57 AM
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Day 35: Sacramento family reunion - mission accomplished, I didn't drink. Observations: This weekend was EASY. I am noticing that not drinking is becoming a lot easier for me. My body and mind are starting to be trained that i don't need to drink, which is such a refreshing feeling. I don't feel handcuffed by drinking anymore. I feel free. I realized that i am different. Everyone else could drink to have a good time. Nobody got that drunk, and everyone stopped at a reasonable time. If i would have chosen to drink, I would have gotten wasted and drank until 1:00, 2:00 in the morning in the hotel room with Adina and a sleeping Billy. There were 4 leftover coors lights in the hotel fridge that i noticed in the morning, i would have taken those, and probably pounded a few of them in the morning to help me with my hangover. I would have then seen the family like a total mess, and that's the impression i would have left with everyone. By choosing not to drink i lived in the moment this weekend. I woke up early with Billy, wanted to see the family, was active all of Sunday (including preparing meals for the week), and felt like i actually really appreciated the weekend. I know that if i drank i would have been hungover and depressed today (Sunday) and i would have drank beers. In turn, i would be hungover tomorrow for work. The decision seems so clear to me now. I enjoy life so more when I choose to be the best version of myself. Best part of my weekend: Waking up Sunday knowing that I conquered a pretty challenging weekend where I typically would have drank heavily. Sacramento - check Rocca BBQ - Trip to NYC - Cardinals games - You got this. |
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sblair2010
July 30, 2015, 10:17 PM
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August Obstacles: -Sacramento (Aug 1st) -Rocca BBQ (Aug 8th) -NYC Trip (Aug 17-21) -Cardinals are in town, Fri-Sun (28th-30th) |
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sblair2010
July 30, 2015, 10:12 PM
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| Observation, Day 33: I am actually learning to deal with my emotions now. I feel like i have used drinking for so long to shut out my emotions about the losses in my life | |
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July 27 to August 3
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You continue to impress me! You are truly on your way to becoming the best version of yourself. The change in you is remarkable and I LOVE LOVE LOVE the man you are!!!
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July 20 to July 27
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You have come so far!! You didn't let drinking get the best of you and I
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July 13 to July 20
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I am so proud of you! I know that this is difficult and not necessarily getting easier for you. I feel like our weekends are SO much better with you not drinking! We're more active, we eat better, we get along better, we have more quality family time!
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Really tough weekend, but I got through it. Very happy that I chose not to drink.
July 6 to July 13
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GREAT JOB HONEY!! I'm so proud of you for doing so good. I know there have been tough days, but you stuck with it and you're such an amazing man for doing that. By not drinking, you are being so much healthier and such a better daddy and husband.Lovey
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