jbanke10
Quit Masturbating/Porn Star this Commitment
Week 32 of 52

jbanke10 commits to:
Abstain from viewing pornography, including intentionally searching for material for arousal purposes, even if it is not categorized as pornography (such as googling "hot anime babes" "sexy insert-video-game-character-here", etc).
I also commit to abstain from masturbating. In case of contract failure, donate money to jw.org

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Last reported: Pending
Successful (pending referee feedback)
Next report due:
November 27
12:00 AM GMT
Commitment Journal
jbanke10
jbanke10
November 20, 2017, 6:30 PM
I've decided I am done with this contract. Although it was helpful especially early on, it is not helpful now. I am reporting successful even though I failed this week.

The reason I am choosing to no longer lose money when I fail my committment is because I have realized over the last couple of months that the root of my problem isn't a sexual addiction--that is a symptom of identity and insecurity--a much more important issue. I am blessed to have a pretty incredible mentor come into my life recently and he is helping ask the tough questions as well as help me to think through my habits and patterns. I am grateful to each person who has put up with an email every week for more than half a year! Thanks everybody!

Stickk doesn't let you end contracts, so I will keep reporting successful in order to not lose any more money, but I will give you the honest answer. God bless you and have a wonderful day!
jbanke10
jbanke10
November 14, 2017, 6:21 PM
Alrighty I've reported a no this week because I have not accomplished my goal. Also, the last two weeks I reported that I accomplished my goal, but I actually lied. I've been repeatedly failing my goal.

What I originally set out to accomplish with this stickk contract is not really working. Basically I've just lost a bunch of money, which is more depressing than helpful.

Okay actually I haven't lost a bunch of money forever. Because I changed the recipient of all the money I lose to be myself. So after a year is up, I will get all that money back. Pretty deceptive, huh?

Unfortunately I cannot end my contract at this point--it has to go on until I am finished. Therefore I commit to being honest in reporting for the remainder of the contract.

And I need your help more then ever. The reality is that I have a real sexual addiction--being clearly defined as repeatedly doing something even though I have tried to stop time and time again. I've taken a class at my church on addiction which has been very helpful, and I have someone who is meeting with me regularly and encouraging me. It's been helpful, but I still need your help. I need your encouragement, and I need to know that there's actual humans reading these reports and they aren't just going out to nowhere. I am very grateful for all the support I have received so far and I want to let you know that I need it more then ever right now. Thank you all for supporting me and I want to you know that any encouragement--text, email, a stickk comment, etc. goes a long, long way. Cheers!
jbanke10
jbanke10
October 16, 2017, 4:32 PM
Thanks for all the people supporting me. I realize I am not alone & it's good to have amazing people around me!
jbanke10
jbanke10
September 25, 2017, 3:52 AM
It's been a rough month. I appreciate all and any prayers! Cheers!
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November 13 to November 20
Successful (pending referee feedback)
Success
Pending
November 6 to November 13
Not Successful
Not Successful
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October 30 to November 6
Successful (referee feedback expired)
Success
No report submitted
October 23 to October 30
Successful (referee feedback expired)
Success
No report submitted
Recipient of Stakes
Money to a friend ($100.00 to josh kingston per failed reporting period)
To change the Recipient of Stakes for your Quit Masturbating/Porn Commitment, enter their email address or stickK username below.
Total at stake: $5,200.00
Stakes per period: $100.00
Remaining Stakes: $2,100.00
Total Money Lost: $900.00
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