katslapp
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Food program
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Week 12 of 12
katslapp commits to:
Sticking to the FA program for 90 days . Monitoring the improvements to my parenting, my inner peace and my fat percentage
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My Commitment Journal
 katslapp
February 18, 2019, 2:14 AM
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| I had aprox 5 days abstinent, I'm speaking with Lilly every morning, but over the weekend I hit the ice cream big time - just prior to this Lilly skipped a call with me with only 1 min notice then gave up the next day on a make up call. I noticed I'd lost weight on the thursday, and I felt happy about that, I feel I've lived closer to God lately and when my colleague Michael wrote a sms to me saying he'd been in the food the night before I felt sorry for him and a little like "well thats not me , that couldn't be me" . also sonia visited me sat night and I felt connected and grateful like I have friends, and then I went with me intuition and left the tv and did some drawing ... then i hit the ice cream and stayed up til 3am watching netflix!! | |
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katslapp
February 11, 2019, 4:37 AM
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| I am on day one but my binges are decreasing in occurance and severity. i have lost a couple of kilos, I am praying a lot more and making the call with Lilly every morning at 6:45am. I have not been meditating daily , I have "God centered" as my intention for the day. I am progressing through the steps with the OA / Arch to freedom and Sue as my sponsor | |
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katslapp
February 2, 2019, 9:44 PM
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| i hav established action partners with Lilly, I am doing step work, Jenny Taylor gave me feedback that shes concerned about me, that i didn't seem to have an emotional crash after Jim left and I seem to be busy and not present when she's seen me the last few months. I am concerned because i wonder how often i am present with liam or myself or what the impact on others is too (that i;m not noticing) during the conversation with jenny I broke open with crying and saying that i locate myself in a space of not good enough, unloved, unwanted, not getting what the other girls got. jenny said to sit with this and fel this will lead to not locating myself there. my sponsor said to feel it not be it is the goal. i've not lost weight yet or stuck to FA eating plan but i;m gradually developing a god centered approach and some self acceptance . I call swinbourne psych clinic tomorrow too | |
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katslapp
January 9, 2019, 12:16 AM
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Last night was meeting 1/r of OA step group using arch to freedom . Me, Anna, Michael & Ryan, lead by Sue. Message was 1. work out for yourself if yo're an addict. Adddicts have both a physical allergy (ie react differently to sugar / quantities than other people) and a mental obsession. this means we nee to find something in sobriety , that gives us the same sense of ease & comfort which we get at once from sugar/quantities. we have no power to stop once we start - knowledge of self is not enough - the memory of how shit yesterday was does not stop us picking up today. I AM WILLING TO CONCEDE TO MY INNERMOST SELF THAT I HAVE NO POWER AND I NEED A NEW MANAGER list of Q in workboook, share with my partner Anna, resume with group next Tue. |
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