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Week 5 of 5
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Daily entry of specific event data based on the Social Rhythm Metric (SRM). Note: previously started this goal even though commitment states "today."
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My Commitment Journal
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April 24, 2014, 10:38 PM
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| Honestly, I am not very concerned about this goal. I don't think that it's a good goal for my current state. It was a good goal before I relapsed. But now I think it's more important to restore my health. I don't think it makes sense to try and take SRM data, when I'm still recovering from the effects of several weeks worth of insufficient sleep. The depression and the sleep deprivation took a big hit on me - and had a negative impact across most domains, which changed many of my goals. Previously I wanted to get at least an "A" in this class, but now I would be satisfied with passing at all. Previously I wanted to take SRM data, but now I would be satisfied with simply catching up on sleep. If this contract were to hypothetically continue, I would most likely continue to be unsuccessful with this goal and feel indifferent to the $5 paid to the anti-charity. | |
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April 18, 2014, 5:19 AM
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| I didn't feel motivated at all to do this. I also preproperated- I knew I was unsuccessful the previous week while depressed, and this week is the same. My stick is definitely not strong enough. I would rather pay my anti charity than fill out forms that remind me that my mood is so poor and I have an extremely erratic schedule. | |
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April 11, 2014, 2:12 AM
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| I've been really depressed this week, so everything is really thrown off. When I thought of my contract and of not being successful this week, it didn't seem like any loss at all compared to the internal "loss" I already feel while depressed. It's been tough to even keep up with brushing my teeth regularly. Everything is so much effort and motivation is low the financial cost of paying to an anti-charity is not an effective stick. In order to "take the choice off the table" (of not completing the goal) - the stick would have to be something very extreme -like - getting kicked out of my house if I don't complete it. It's worth thinking about and trying to learn from- although I'm not sure what a contract would need to be like for me to be successful. When I was really depressed in high school, there was no amount of punishment and no amount of reward that could motivate me to do my homework. My parents tried everything under the sun. And in retrospect, even if I had been offered 1 million dollars to pass English (which I failed)- I don't think that would have been an effective carrot. And at that time, a stick of potentially getting kicked out would not be effective, either. I want to think more about how I might create a better contract in the future that could still help me be successful even if I get depressed. | |
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April 4, 2014, 1:06 AM
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| It was good to enter the data- I could see that different social circumstances (seemed) to have an effect on when I went to bed, which then influenced my mood. I thought that it was more my sleep that influences my mood, but now I think that my mood/mental state determines when I want to go to bed, which then determines how much sleep I will get (I always get up at the same time). I will have to consider methods to motivate myself to go to bed even if I don't want to. There were several days when I got less than 3 hours of sleep, and the average amount of sleep was 4.85. Note: major events most likely influencing mood- broke up with boyfriend who then send non-stop messages and phone calls. Also have been house-sitting for my aunt, so I am living somewhere else (just for this week). | |
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