No Out of Control Drinking for One ... Star this Commitment
Week 27 of 52

Brittneymsufi commits to:
I commit to not drinking enough to brown-out or black-out or to act out of control for one year to begin. I commit to setting and sticking to drink limits in order to meet my goal. I commit to spending the year searching for what may lead me to binge-drink in certain situations, and identify the triggers that have led to more reckless behavior in the past. I commit to eating healthier to enable my body to act more appropriately. I commit this to myself, my husband, my family and friends.
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August 27
8:00 AM GMT
My Commitment Journal
August 20, 2019, 4:09 PM
This weekend was great. I went to New York and set limits per day that I achieved. I was thoughtful and intentional about what the day entailed, and what would be reasonable to consume throughout the day. I was able to slow myself down, stick to my limits, and had so much fun. I felt good about sticking to my limits and not getting drunk or acting out of control. I feel so confident in being able to stick with this moving forward
August 6, 2019, 4:08 PM
This weekend I realized that when I set no limit - drink or curfew - I have a hard time staying on the same page with my husband, and it makes him feel like he has to be the “bad guy” or responsible adult and it’s unfair
July 2, 2019, 7:20 PM
Things have been relatively good, but this past Thursday at the concert I was really anxious and feeling frustrated with work, and feeling undervalued and I think I overdrank to numb myself of those feelings. I noticed I tend to overdo it around Myll, especially with the Myll/faisal dynamic, and I knew that going in, but just ignored it. I am feeling so down on myself, like I can’t be a good partner when I’m drinking that much around faisal, and feel insecure like people are judging me or don’t like me. In general, I feel insecure and judged by Lindsay and Larissa, and feel that I also over do it around them because of that. I am grateful I have found a new therapist and I can prioritize working on this, and becoming more mindful and less subject to my anxiety or emotions in these situations.
It feels like a chicken or the egg situation - does my anxiety cause me to overdo it? Or does overdoing it cause my anxiety? During my sober month, I felt in control and happy for the most part, but definitely still dealt with anxiety. It seems that trying the 5 drink limit around faisal, maybe unless it is a wedding or bachelorette party, makes sense. Then I think of these occasions like visiting Denver where we might get brunch, then go to a brewery, then chill for a bit, and then go out at night, and it seems like 5 drinks is too little. At the same time, it’s not worth it. I’m feeling so lost and unsure of what to do. I just want to be able to track how I am feeling, know when to stop/slow down, but not set hard limits... I don’t think I can do that right now though due to my anxiety and wanting to escape it, so it seems that at least around faisal my 5 drink limit should hold until I’ve seen my therapist more, and feel confident in my ability to be mindful and listen to my body and mind
May 28, 2019, 10:09 PM
This weekend, I over did it in Portland on a night we went and did karaoke, and ended up saying some very dramatic things that I didn’t mean, and that I regret. Faisal and I have decided that binge drinking together isn’t worth it. Our stubbornness, and other items cause us to argue. Furthermore, it’s become apparent that it’s not only Faisal that thinks I act out of character, and bad, when I binge drink which makes me feel ashamed and embarrassed. I don’t want to be perceived that way. I had anxiety the past few days, and it’s definitely brought on by drinking. I think 5 drinks in a day is more than lax, and I don’t know why I can’t stick to this limit.
I never wanted to alter my life to address this problem, but am thinking that the easiest way to remedy it, is to not put myself in these situations anymore.
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