We have to make a million choices each and every day, so it makes sense that to keep things simple, we always make the same ones. But the easy choices don't always mean the right choices.
Commit today to changing it up, to doing something different, and making the choice that improves your life for the better. Believe it or not, pretty soon that choice will be the easy one to make too.
"Urges are still apparent of course with much of it stemming from either Richelle Ryan, Jules Jordan of K Klixen. I’ve noticed also that women I’ve seen at the gym with a curvaceous figure tend to take my breath away. I feel this is reflective of the type of women I fantasize from porn. Because that’s the standard of attraction I want in women, it can feel even more demoralising when trying to approach. It feels intimidating because the standard is quite high. This is also why it can feel frustrating and hopeless. I have the habit in interacting with men when at the gym in the locker room or sauna. But I don’t have the same inclination when it comes to women, in case they suspect I’m trying to come onto them. It’s easier to approach when there’s something genuine you want to interact with them on."
"Went for a swim to keep up routine and wellbeing despite a bad night sleep. Went to Dr's for test results of blood tests and got medication and sorted NHS app. Spent hours sorting out really difficult admin using strong support systems on Focusmate without horrible Harriett!"
"Spent 4 hours chilling on the common having amazing life chats with Venus then went to my parents for a wholesome meal, no screens and reading a book."
"rules change: edging won't count as a failure until the day 11, from day 11 to 17 edging will count as a failure if i don't stop in 3 minutes and Day 17 to so on Edging will count as a failure regardless how much it takes me to stop, ejaculating still will count as a failure for the whole time. Also i was about to ejaculate 6 times."
"I called twice and also checked both phones for voicemails after a missed call from doctors so asked Google Gemini and it recommended to join NHS app which I did and did every step of process including text and email codes and taking passport photo and video even though it took ages I did it! ✔️ "
"Today I ate oat puding? (Im not sure what does that thing called?) in the morning and börek in the noon. Actually the meal time was a bit late😅 but anyways🫣 Then I ate fish in the evening. I think today was more healthier🩷"
"Actually first day of my commitment was succesfull. I ate menemen at breakfast and it was 10.00. Also ate chicken at 12.00. Then ate börek at 20.00. I think it went very well just still not sure about healthy eating"
"Had some urges this week and they usually tend to occur when I’m in bed. Most recently there was something on Instagram about a former adult actress that compelled me to look over pics of them. I’ve also had ‘meditation’ instances of me fantasising over the likes of Ryan Conner, Richelle Ryan and women I’ve noticed at the gym. It does at times feel a bit tormenting that I don’t have the courage to approach them. However I also don’t have anything genuine to approach them for. Being more in touch with my community I feel is safer when approaching people in general, and doing it everyday is easier. Even if there’s the risk of being rejected, it’s to filter out those that I’m able to build a connection with."
"Well, today was a big day. I filed the police report starting out. It's only for harassment so I can get a protection order. It's a long road, it's gonna be a long fight. I still gotta get in for identity. Theft, domestic violence and unpaid wages. And then I got a file for a divorce, not easy with a covert narcissistic sociopath. But i'm in it to win it.He doesn't get to take my life"
"mostly i masturbated till i cummed but recently i've changed to edging which i did not count as a fail because it's kinda a big step to fighting the masturbation addiction because it means i have self control but from tomorrow and on i'll consider stroking it for more than 10 seconds a fail"
"I fell off-track quite a lot these past couple of days. Today I commit to getting back on the right track. I've learned my lesson: strictly turn of devices at night and get enough sleep; be more intentional about my phone and laptop use; be comfortable with boredom."
