NumberJoe
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Sexual Purity
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Week 13 of 13
NumberJoe commits to:
Not masturbating nor intentionally seeking out inappropriate images or videos for the purpose of sexual gratification.
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My Commitment Journal
 NumberJoe
December 14, 2016, 6:20 PM
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Hello everyone, I reported a success for this week. It's not true. I just don't want to throw any more money away for being foolishly overconfident and entering into this contract. This is not the first report I have made that was false. There have been a few. Many times I was honest, but some have been false. I owe all of you an apology. I have learned a few t hings from this. First, a man should listen to his wife. He married her for a reason after all. Katie didn't like this idea from the get go, but I insisted. Second, I find lying easy if I feel pushed into corner. I grow, become more mature, learn new things, etc but I still find lying easy to dodge consequences. I wouldn't say I'm a pathological liar by any means, but especially related to this topic it has become far too easy. Third, success in purity is not found in financial contracts. It is not found in focusing on it either. Each time i focus on it and try a new 'tactic' it goes well at first, as I come at it with a new fervor, but it ends the same. I end up as bad or worse, and further from God than when I began. Purity becomes an idol, and sexuality becomes a focus. It's as ridiculous as walking into a convenience store and staring at the cigarettes to try and overcome smoking, and then asking the guy at the counter to ask you every now and then whether or not you've stolen any. Success is found by focusing on worshiping God, loving Him and people. When I focus on purity, I start trying to be pure and stop trying to love God. When I focus on God, I do a great many things in worship, and I am motivated to resist temptation. Thank-you all for sticking with me, and i apologize for being such a slow learner, and offering you all very little progress. I intend to abandon this contract, and it is my hope that Julian will understand. I'm going to pursue God and let Him work on my heart and the sin in my life, rather than setting myself up for failure and returning to a life of hiding in shame. Please continue to support me with your prayers and your friendship, and do not hesitate to ask me how I am doing. Contracts might not work, but friends are truly very helpful. |
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 oakstumpf
November 3, 2016, 9:54 PM
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| Glad to hear these reports Josh! Keep pressing in and keep your guard up! | |
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oakstumpf
October 22, 2016, 3:01 AM
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| Don't be discouraged, but be strong and courageous Josh! Victory is in store for those who patiently wait on the Lord and who persevere in the way of righteousness. May God strengthen you with His mighty power in your inner man. May your vision be filled with Jesus and the beauty of His life and His cross so no room remains for darkness. May you have intimate conversations with Him, and may you always run to Him and not away from Him at times when you fall. Love and prayers! | |
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NumberJoe
October 21, 2016, 10:30 PM
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| Hey all, sorry about not reporting earlier. I was very busy and it got away on me. I regret to report that I wasn't successful this past week and was feeling quite ashamed as well. But God is good, and I really don't like this feeling of giving money to Trump, so I'm ready to get back to work : ) | |
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