After a discussion with my accountability partner, I came to the conclusion that I did not meet the goal not saving pictures that provoke lust leading to masturbation last week. So that is why I'm reporting this week that I did not meet the goal |
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Derrick keep fighting bro,
I think of this scripture
Matthew 6 22 “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. 23 But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness.
What we look at really does effect us spiritually, so we have to be on guard. so does this count as a breach of your commitment ?
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This week was very rough. I almost gave into masturbation and porn when I was triggered by a picture a girl I know sent to me via social media. I found myself browsing social medica way too much, looking at pictures of girls and models a lot while fantasizing in my mind. I saved a few only to delete them, and repeat the process all over again. I just thank God I was not by myself most of the time this week, f not I'm sure I would've caved in |
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This week hasn't been so bad. I had success having some self control when it came to Facebook, even tho a few too many times I searched and looked at profiles, what was interesting is that I didn't have much desire to lust even though I still looked at some of their pictures. So I guess it's still lust, no way around it. The same thing goes for second looks, and I find myself struggling to get out of the habit of looking at certain parts of the body instead of the person as a whole or the person's face, or that I want to look at those parts, but more like a nasty habit that I cultivated over the years. I realize that if I stay away from most of social media, my lust habits will decrease. This coming year I will make some positive changes towards that, Lord helping. |
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