Day 22: One more week down. I will continue striving to improve my will by small increments. This is a marathon. It is not a sprint. Slow and steady.
25 Jan 2013 03:13 PM
Day 15: Had a breakthrough this week. I was able to resist when I was sure I already decided that I was going to cave. I realized that I don't need to out so much stock in my feelings. I am bound to experience them but I do not have to act on them. I have a choice. When a powerful feeling of temptation overcomes you and you choose to act against it that feeling actually dies on the vine. This was a powerful realization for me.
18 Jan 2013 09:45 AM
Day 7: Made it one week. Week 2 will be much harder. More time alone means more opportunities to screw up. I have to keep my guard up and take positive action when I am tempted.
14 Jan 2013 11:24 AM
Day 3: I made it through the weekend. Of course this was no great accomplishment because Sarah was home the whole time. I had plenty to keep me busy since she was sick. The challenges will mount the more I am home by myself. I have not found a substitute routine that provides the release of tension and excitement that porn does. So until I discover or think of one I will rely on counter strategies that get me away from the computer. As a substitute activity I have decided on several options, listed in order based on which I will try first. 1. Go the the library across the street and hang out. 2. Take a walk down the block or around the neighborhood. 3. Walk to Wellesley books and snoop around. Bring money.
12 Jan 2013 12:59 PM
Day 1: Early on Saturday morning. The process of building self-control begins with making a plan for the day and carrying out whatever task I need to. I will go to confession today for the first time in ten years.
11 Jan 2013 08:46 PM
This is a bad habit that has been with me since I was 10 years old. It negatively affects my relationship with my wife and my productivity. My inability to stop doing this ruins my confidence and makes me fear the state of my soul. God help me I have many flaws and not all of them can be overcome at once. But I believe if I can conquer this, my most persistent and discouraging vice, then I can accomplish anything through the merits of my redeemer Jesus Christ. Please, give me the courage and will to succeed.