Mariahg21
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Keep peace with Sean
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Week 12 of 12
Mariahg21 commits to:
I commit to being and staying civil with Sean Clarke. To not engage in anymore fights or arguments about past or present hurts. To stay at peace and move on with the knowlege, things will never get better within our marriage. Work on a friendship for our children. To not engage in any quality time alone, with the exception our kids being present. Let go of the past and move on.
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My Commitment Journal
 Mariahg21
July 8, 2014, 1:07 PM
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| We haven't fought or argued. So the peace is there but I did have sex with Sean. I know I shouldn't have I just couldn't help it but that's no excuse I need to states focused and not give Sean all he wants cause he's making it very clear all he wants from me is to have sex whenever he wants. Stay strong. For this next week no hugging kissing nothing with Sean. | |
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Mariahg21
July 1, 2014, 12:55 PM
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| The peace has been kept but I keep falling back. Every time he asks me for something I jump at the chance to do it and show him I care and love him still. I can't seem to say no to him. I still love Sean so much and he wants nothing to do with me and it's all my fault. I'm trying to figure out what I am supposed to do. Am I supposed to fight for him and show him my love, do right by him and still have faith in our marriage or just let it all go and really try to move on. I'm going to give it to god and trust him. If Sean and I are meant to be together in the future god will find a way. I will continue to serve god, stay trustworthy and honest. Trying to become a better mother for my boys and a better person for everyone around me. I pray Sean forgives me. | |
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Mariahg21
June 25, 2014, 4:13 AM
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| Things have been ok. I once again was having a hard time understanding how much Sean doesn't want to be with me. It's really a hard thing to swallow. On Sunday I took the boys to see Sean. Stephanie was there visiting him. I got very upset. I shouldn't have. Sean could see whoever he wants. She was nothing of what I was expecting. The first thing that came to my mind when I seen her was nice eyebrows. Other then that I didn't have much thought on her appearance. I had higher expectations of what she looked like. Anyway. I ended up staying Sunday with the boys till 7. It's was nice. I probably shouldn't be spending anymore time with Sean but it's hard to just leave. I know he enjoyed spending the time he did with Zion. Za was playing most of the time with the other boys that were there. Sean is really pushing the fact he just wants to be my friend. So hard to accept that but I must. I didn't cry today. I pretty much stayed busy. Making phone calls made dinner cleaned and took a walk. With feeding Zion. I don't have much time to myself expect while he's sleeping. Anyway things are fine with Sean. Just trying to find those boundaries for us. Now another week. Let's see how it goes. Stay positive. | |
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Mariahg21
June 19, 2014, 6:27 AM
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| It's time to focus on myself and my children. Its time to set boundaries with Sean and stick to them. It's time to do things for myself and things that make me truly happy. It's time to really do me | |
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