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 drummtyler
November 23, 2023, 2:01 AM
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| I don't really feel like I have a purpose... I feel like that rat stuck in a cage that would take hits off the morphine to help the time pass by. I need to find something I enjoy. | |
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drummtyler
November 19, 2023, 6:10 PM
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| Woke up in the middle of the night, feeling okay, but then feeling like I forgot something to stress about. Then I remembered what I was stressing about. So, I started to stress about dumb stuff. Then, the next logical step was to think about intimacy... | |
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drummtyler
November 8, 2023, 7:31 PM
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| Last night I was feeling insecure, so I started eating a bunch of random stuff after the meeting yesterday. I watched a bunch of YouTube and got some other busy work done. I tried going to sleep but couldn't. I messed up again as I thought about Mica. I'm realizing that I need to find a different way to manage my insecurity because that's what's causing my failures. | |
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drummtyler
November 8, 2023, 4:33 AM
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| I messed up twice this morning... I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about work. It was nice to think about something else, but eventually, I started thinking about Mica, and one thing led to another. I thought about it too long. I need to change my thinking rather than dwelling on it, but I need to find something to find security outside of my memories with her. | |
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