marayawahl
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Codependency Action Check
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Day 10 of 42
marayawahl commits to:
Do not overcall, once per day (be smart about when). No back to back texts, up to 3 texts before a response , think it strategic. Write in notes to get it out. No crazy things like drive without asked. If you feel the energy, find another outlet. A fun or productive outlet, but not an outlet that will complicate. Other areas of life and self, eventually building to honesty & integrity w self. Remember you will get the attention you need to be fulfilled, maybe even more not acting out.
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My Commitment Journal
 marayawahl
May 31, 2026, 4:52 AM
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| Did not over call today. Or over text. But I’m having a lot of trouble thinking of letting him go. I don’t want to, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to do the things he wants in a relationship (like move in together, have him involved in my friends/family) bc of the shit we’ve been through. But I can’t seem to let him go he’s perfect where he’s at right now. Even hearing him say really mean shit doesn’t bother me, bc I know I’m doing my own reactions to things. As if we both are toxic and comfortable w each other and still love each other. But having a lot of trouble thinking of him not being in my life | |
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marayawahl
May 27, 2026, 8:31 PM
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| I did send more than three texts in a row during a certain conversation we were having, and my codependency levels were high recently because of him talking to another girl. But I did not call back to back or send desperate amount of text messages that I knew he wouldn’t answer to | |
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marayawahl
May 26, 2026, 4:28 PM
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| I did alright, no back to back calling, but it’s still hard to talk to him without something feeling like it becomes an argument. It’s very hard to only have one phone call a day so right now, attempting to not back to back call is the biggest habit to try to work on. It’s so hard, I hate that this is how it feels. I haven’t been in a labeled relationship for almost a year bc of HIS actions (I know I wasn’t perfect, but mainly his), and yet I’m still so attached to him. I can’t even be consistent in how I feel abt his situation w this girl | |
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marayawahl
May 25, 2026, 5:02 PM
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| I did well today, but I did also see him. I didn’t call. I didn’t over text. The next few days will be hard. When I know he’s with her I feel a whole new grief. But it’s good that I won’t be able to call like I’ve been. Maybe instead of this working out between them, this will be the way to break my codependency with him. He’s got something so beautiful and enticing about him, and the fact that we’re both imperfect keeps me with him, but he’s not exactly boyfriend material to someone like her. She would be devastated if there was someone on the side basically the whole time | |
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