I've been doing pretty horrid. But I feel that I will soon regain my motivation. I hate my thought process. I hate my weakness. It's so difficult to be disciplined and lose weight. To be fit. To be healthy. To be happier. I don't want anyone to push me. I want to be able to say I did it myself! Normally I love help but there are some things in life that I need to accomplish without direct and obvious help of others. I wish my bestie would work out with me but she's caught up in her own world. Ahh! Life sucks and I feel like I'm trapped in my own body and my mind is the master key holder. Lord unlock my world. It isn't just about looking good its about conquering the beast within. (Beast Mode) Qualities such as: Driven, Focused, Goal-Oriented, Disciplined, Responsible, Punctual, Accountable, Early-Bird, and Trustworthy are the ones I desire ever so much. I have been these at some point of time but they're not my trademarks. These things were not instilled in me in my fetus. LOL I must work harder then the average person to obtain them. I believe they're tied to wisdom, intellect, self-control and patience also other virtues to deeply desire. I want these words to be my signature. To be real. To be optimal. I want to my ambition to grow but not overflow and hurt other or me. We're not going corporate ladies and gents. I just like winning! I need a 360 degree shift. Cold Turkey change. Something in my brain needs to unlock and burst all the crap inside into flames!
I want so much out of life. Live life to the fullest! #Single
Fitness, Better Hygiene and Being Early are going to be a huge part of my victory.
#Basic Shaky Foundation out of God's grace I'm still standing.
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I haven't been doing that well. I've lost track of my food intake but it has been a share of healthy and unhealthy foods. Little exercise, some days more then others but nothing exuberant. I do remember what I ate yesterday...
Brunch-
Subway 6 inch sub
Light Lemonade
Sunchips
and 2 cookies
Water
Snack-Kit-Kat Bar
Dinner-Wendy's Coke, Fries & Burger
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7/8 Today
Breakfast-Water and 1 Spinach & Cheese Empanada Standard size as well as a chicken empanada
Lunch-Parmesan Chicken, Organic Couscous and mixed greens. 1 standard size Sprite can. Water
Dessert-1 small brownie
For Dinner will eat-Pork, white rice and black beans and water
You guys I need to buy Vitamins. Pictures coming up next week |
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