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Commit My Food Each Night
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Week 7 of 7
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I commit to "commit" my food for the next day, three weighed and measured Bright Line meals, each night, and then eat only and exactly that without any extra bites, licks or tastes.
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 lqueener
April 17, 2017, 11:56 AM
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| The goal has changed. See post from this morning. | |
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lqueener
April 14, 2017, 1:56 AM
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| Today will have to be my "pass" day. We were invited to a playdate at the park last minute and decided to go. It was BYO picnic, so we got Chick-Fil-A on the way, which was not what I had planned. I got a salad and fruit cup, so it was BLE friendly, but still... I am honestly feeling pretty discouraged about this commitment. I worry that it wasn't realistic. I made it because I want to be better at planning, but I am NOT a planner!!! And we do make so many last minute plans/adjustments... I think before I made this big jump and commitment to plan all my meals, I should have just stuck with only BLE with no bites, licks or tastes, and just that would have been a big enough challenge, because as cook, it's really hard for me to remember not to taste (only BLE-friendly items) as I'm cooking. And so often, I don't decide on what to cook for dinner until THAT day. But I will keep trying until I know for sure it's not going to work. Tomorrow, I plan to eat the same breakfast: 1oz (dry) oatmeal, 2 eggs, 6oz blueberry and watermelon combo; 2c lentil soup with 5oz salad; 4oz pork chops, 6oz yellow squash, 8oz salad. Thank you, God, for my food tomorrow. Please help me maintain my BLE. | |
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lqueener
April 13, 2017, 3:18 AM
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| Today was was an emotionally hard day. I did not eat according to my plan AND I also broke my two most important Bright Lines by eating sugar and flour. I have to say, I didn't know quite how to set it up when I made this contract (although I have since figured it out) but I figured $12 each week so that each day would be worth $2 with one "pass" day each week allowed to not commit my food (which would still be Bright Line meals, just not necessarily reported in advance, or perhaps changed if we decided last minute to eat out or eat something different, or if I fell asleep early before my bedtime routine, etc). All that to say that I now owe my hubby $2. I did learn valuable lessons through this break in my Bright Lines. First, I hope I don't believe my Saboteur that eating sugar will make me a better mom. Obviously, this sounds ridiculous in hindsight, but taking those bites, I was thinking "What's the point of being so strict about my eating? It takes up to much emotional energy to constantly be saying no to the treats I really want, plus with all the emotional stuff I've been processing lately, since I don't have food to help me cope, I've been leaking that anger and hurt out onto my kids with short temper. It's making me a bad mom. I should just quit." I very quickly remembered after the binge that having a headache from the sugar, congestion from the milk I drank to wash down the sugar, and the tremendous low after of the crash absolutely makes me a worse mom! Eating according to my Bright Lines helps me reserve precious will power to parent with more love, patience, and compassion. Eliminating sugar and flour keeps me in sound mind and better emotional balance, and free from shame and guilt that make me more defensive and snappy towards lived ones. Bright Line Eating helps me to be a better mom. I also feel that I learned how important it is not just to record what I plan to eat, but to truly commit between me and God that I am going to eat that and only that which I plan, and to intentionally pray for continued strength and healing in this journey. Because I really need God's help and transforming power to do this. It IS hard getting back on track after some squirrely days, and just to adjust to focusing more on my Bright Lines than the scale. Anyways, "God, thank you for providing me with great food tomorrow. I'm so thankful to have healthy food to eat: 4 oz cooked oatmeal, 3oz strawberries, 3oz banana, 2 eggs; 5oz salad, 5oz chicken salad, 6oz watermelon; 2 cups lentil soup, 1 hard-boiled egg, 8oz salad. Thank you for healing my body, brain, and heart. Thank you for giving me strength. You are the one who sustains me and satisfies my soul. Please help me to live love well tomorrow. And thank you for tomorrow, and that your mercies are new every morning. Especially in this Easter season, I am so thankful for Jesus' work on the cross, that because of Him, I can be set free and completely healed, and able to be in relationship with you, the one my soul longs for. Thank you, thank you, thank you!" | |
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lqueener
April 12, 2017, 12:55 AM
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| Planning to eat same plan tomorrow as today. | |
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