Today has been a pretty rough day for me.
This morning, I thought, “I need to do 12 rounds to get all my work done.” Instead of that thought propelling me to do the work, it just made me anxious. I spent the day alternating between pacing while thinking, “I need to get started,” and coming up with things to distract me from my anxiety. It’s almost 9pm, and I still haven’t gotten anything done. It’s been a very frustrating day.
I’ve been wondering why yesterday was different, and I’ve come up with a hypothesis. Whenever I sat down to study yesterday, I wasn’t thinking about how much I had to do. All I thought about was the fact that it was time to start studying. And I did it.
So with all that being said, I think I have to give up making concrete plans. It seems like anytime I think about all I have left to do, I get overwhelmed; and the times I don’t think about it, I’m fine.
I won’t be studying tomorrow because I’ve got a test, and I’m taking Sunday off. Which means that I’m not going to get a chance to test my hypothesis until Monday. I’ll provide an update on Monday evening. |
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Having a hard time getting started this morning... I’m pretty frustrated right now. |
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I did more than what I needed to do today to meet my goal for the week... The magnitude of that statement is starting to sink in, and I’m extremely proud of myself. With that thought in mind, I’m going to go to bed feeling good. |
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I completed 4.5 hours of studying today. I’ve been oscillating between feeling good about it and feeling like I came up short. In terms of reaching my goal of 20 hours for the week, it’s more than sufficient, but I can’t shake the feeling that I could have done more today. I feel like I’m not doing enough to succeed in the long term; but the truth is that I don’t remember the last time I got 4.5 hours of studying done in one day, and I’m well on my way to meeting my goal for the week. |
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