FilipSierpinski
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Give up Grindr for 90 days
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Week 12 of 12
FilipSierpinski commits to:
not installing Grindr, reopening my account and engaging with in conversation to numb out my emotions
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My Commitment Journal
 FilipSierpinski
August 26, 2019, 12:58 PM
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| See post below! Great week. Happy with how things progressed even though I rewarded myself with "smoking weed" once since I did the MVP mission. | |
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FilipSierpinski
August 26, 2019, 12:57 PM
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| Done, had another successful week with no Grindr. I smoked weed on Sunday and worried that may tip me back over into Grindr world as thoughts of hooking up with a guy certainly entered my mind. I did notice that once I smoked weed those sexual fantasies did pop up more, its like psychosis happened and I snapped into a different state of being. I feel a lot more clear and level headed today as I smoked in the morning and afternoon yesterday, thus I was burnt out at night, which is better. It's interesting to see the effects of being sober and then reintroducing things into my life, as it feels I have a much better baseline of where things sit currently. I'm happy with my progress and glad I didn't reinstall Grindr. I was super fatigued on Saturday so I'm glad I let myself rest, as I feel HALT was a big part of that evening. I was mega TRIED from Saturday's instacarting and MVP mission. Overall I'm sure happy how things are progressing and glad I didn't jump on Grindr, cuz truthfully I forgot it would have cost be $100 :o | |
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FilipSierpinski
August 20, 2019, 3:19 AM
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| Strong week. Didn’t jerk off all week. My Sunday masturbation gave me permission to own my feelings and love every splinter cell in my body!!! | |
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FilipSierpinski
August 12, 2019, 12:08 PM
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| I did not go on Grindr all week. I felt much better and didn’t even feel compelled to go onto it. There was very little sexual energy towards men. I did have moments of compulsively jerking off. Twice when I was making videos for MedChart. I do see how sex has a big impact on me and the amount of feeling I have to do. It’s time to stop numbing, taking care of my body and be sober for 30 days :) | |
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