Positive : Finally decided to stickk my essay
Decided to work late at uni
Started a "write in the morning" "write in the evening" diary, to compare what I planned and what actually happened, and spot what makes me derail.
To do : I might buy a physical version of Parerga and Parelipomena or any other aphorism book to recreate some kind of "success circle" effect... That really is a community I lack. I'll try to see if there is anything easily found on internet.
The "alleviating schedule effect" was having a really high impact on my motivation. Additionally, the teacher reported the due date, which wasn't encouraging me. I managed to reduce the complexity of the topic, thought. My micro-goal-scheduling being completely fix, with precise hours, the slightest lack of prediction -a course a little too long, etc- made it impossible to follow. |
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Ps : Also found a blocker for Edge. |
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Goals achieved :
-Started speed reading
So, I don't really know how it all happened, but I really had a downcut in my work... I think there are many problems :
-Goal dissection is not as easy as imagined, especially with something like writing an essay on the links and differences between Frege, Husserl, and the Computational Theory of Mind. I really have to find some solution to this, and to review the "motivation equation". Not stickking any subgoal for that kind of task was inevitably dangerous.
-Vacations... Well, vacations. I really don't know what to do with vacations in and out of themselves. What to plan ? When to stop working ? I always try to juggle between tasks until it eventually breaks down and I do things in function of how urgent they are. I think I should really stick to this next time.
-I took a "day off", deciding not to do anything, and it felt incredible. Maybe having some kind of "divination book" telling me what to do during the day could be useful.
-I'm still reading too slowly. I need to fix this.
-Organizing a presentation with friends turned out more complicated than expected, leading me to simply stop worrying about it. I should not have trusted their calendar and set up everything many month in advance...
The harder aspect now :
I read a few things about, well, what could en up to be my future, and really, it kind of demotivated me. Being a post-doc means being paid at a low wage for lots of work and probably nothing fix. Despite progressive clarifications, I'm still confused about my future, and this doesn't help. |
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Ps: the "order" planning (first this, then that) works well and sets up a really efficient routine. I still need to read and implement some DSTD for planned derailment, especially with Edge. |
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