I am being tested this weekend and it comes down to what I 'think' they (in-laws) think of me. And so because I think they think the worst of me when they say something I automatically feel the need to defend myself. By having this commitment to not commenting to anyone it brings me back to thinking through the situation. And don't take anything personally is a good start because it's not about me from there perspective.. it's about them. And it's about what I think about myself and therefore how I think progress see me. I'm a good Mum. I'm not perfect and I could do better but I love my boys and they love me and we've got each other and that is what counts in the end I believe. |
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Really had to bite my tongue today when in law said how she and other in law were making cake for my son..umm how about his mother having some kind of say? I know it comes down to what I'm interpreting rather than their kind intentions. I was so close to taking to husband about it but I took a big breath and remembered my commitment and I'm so glad now I didn't say anything. Nothing good would be achieved. It would have made me angrier and spread the negativity to husband.. i wouldn't have had the reaction I was after which at the time was to feel justified in my anger and injustice! and I don't think that I would have taken the time to take a breath and think rationally about the situation. I'm still working on that but atleast I've kept it to myself. |
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I'm feeling so good with this commitment..i find it's carrying over to other areas and I'm not looking for things to criticize because I'm not going to comment and that's a clear bright line for me. I did well over the weekend. I did almost start to comment and then just stopped myself. |
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M I L is visiting for the weekend... the test begins! |
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