Have been doing very well with not eating anything past 5 pm praise God! I haven't had any sugar or junk food either. I did have bread yesterday though. I kinda forgot that I was trying not to have it because I hadn't really liked the options I saw in the cafe at lunch time. But I will try to be better and remember that I'm staying away from it. |
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Doing this by God's grace. |
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So yesterday's challenge was not unchallenging for me. I had played pickleball in the morning and then went to Costco to buy water. By the time I was back home and showered, it was 1 am. I wanted to get to Edmond to see some homes so I got my cherries and baby carrots together and was on my way. I didn't know whether I'd be back before 5 pm but I figured I could eat out when I found myself out there and use my $15 restaurant allowance. By the time I got out there it was 3 pm and then I met with Timbercraft homes at about 3:30 pm. I was really hoping to have ended it short so I could go grab food. But 4:15 and 4:30 pm came about and I realized I wasn't going to be able to eat. So I did talk to God. I wanted to eat. Now, not because I was starving or very hungry even--but I wanted to eat. I began to think of what would be good to eat. Pasta--spaghetti specifically with the best stew ever along with vege meat (morning star grillers). So I decided to stop in at Wal-Mart and buy the vege patties so that I can make the stew and the meat this morning. I didn't eat. I thank God for that. The amazing thing is that I'm not terribly hungry despite not having had anything more than a bowl of cherries and baby carrots yesterday. So this tells me that I really don't need much food at all. I have gotten used to eating and eating quite a lot. But this parameter of self denial that I have set about myself is good because it is teaching me things--that did I not have that boundary, I wouldn't learn. I am praying for grace to keep going for the long haul but first, to make it through today successfully. What is evident to me though through this journey is how important food has become to me. It is always on my mind. I work my day around it somewhat because it made me want to interrupt the meeting with the builder so I could get some food. Food currently has very much control and a lot of space in my mind. My thoughts are full of food. And what I would like to do through this journey is to get to a place where I'm not thinking so much about food. I want to eat if I'm hungry and if there is healthy, good food to be had. When I do eat, I want to eat a very little just to help with that stomach hunger, and then I want to stop eating and move on. I don't want it dictating my days and pushing in on my activities. |
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I made soup yesterday. My go-to-soup is honestly a mix of everything. It's a base of portobello mushrooms that is sautéed in onions, garlic, pepper, and spices. Then I add beans and whatever other vegetables I have on hand: corn, edemame, green peas, green beans, mixed vegetable mixture, maybe spinach, potatoes, etc. So it ends up being a very filling meal. It's also very tasty. Before I ate this, I had had cherries as well as some carrots so it had taken away any hunger pangs. But I ended up eating about 4 or 5 bowls of the soup yesterday. I operate. May the Lord forgive me. After eating the first bowl, I should have stopped. I just wanted more--not because I was still hungry but because the good was delicious and I was used to eating more. So I ate more and yet more. But I want to eat a small amount and stop. I want to eat a small amount that will satisfy my hunger without overstuffing me and then go about my business. This is my primary goal when it comes to eating: to eat only when I'm hungry and to eat a small amount and stop. Today is a new day; with the Lord's help, I know that I can do all things. I praise God that I have not eaten any junk food since starting this challenge and no sugars and I have not eaten past 5 pm at all. |
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