Reflection: I feel myself slowly losing a bit of my motivation. I need to get back into this.
Grateful:
1. grateful for being able to hang out with my cousins and francis today
2. grateful for being able to come home early today
3. grateful for having the courage to walk up to the squat machine even though I wasn't sure if it was empty/not so I was able to complete my workout.
MIT:
1. Finish OH
2. Finish First problem set
3. Go over CSE120 first homework |
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Reflection: Today I'm committing to applying for 5 jobs daily. I've been obsessed with trying to find a job yet I never apply. I think by actually starting applications, I'll feel the need of studying for job interviews more urgently.
Grateful:
1. I am incredibly thankful that I didn't have to walk to my car yesterday! I totally thought that the last bus had left.
2. I'm thankful for the vienna sausage omelette francis cooked me last night.
3. I'm thankful for the guy fixing our AC
MIT:
1. Finish CSE 120 questions
2. Finish Task4 & Testing for CSE120 project
3. 3 PSET questions |
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Reflection: Ok I am not feeling the 100 degree whether today. But I am feeling really motivated to get things done. I think one thing to keep in mind is your "why." It's easy to get up and work on the first day when you first get started and you're all pumped up and motivated. But on the second and third and fourth when that initial motivation is gone, its really fucking hard and you need something, some reason outside of yourself to keep you going even when you really don't want to anymore. So I've really been searching for my why. For me, it's getting my grandpa to the states. Because of his past issues they won't let him through, but if we pay for a lawyer he might be able to. So I'm working really hard right now so I'm able to one day pay for a lawyer to get him here. I'm also working to inspire my little cousins, the next generation, that no -- there is a life outside of temecula and pechanga and binge drinking and gambling. That you can go to college and finish college and build a career and pay off loans and live and go anywhere that you want. I want to be someone they can look at and think that if I can do it, they can too. That's why I get up at 6-7am in the morning to work.
Grateful:
1. I'm thankful for my mom. She is an imperfect person, but she tries the best she can to make sure that we grew up with values and discipline.
2. I'm thankful that Francis's mom doesn't completely hate me anymore.
3. I'm thankful for all the food we had yesterday! Daing and halo halo 2 days in a row is mah shit.
MIT:
1. Do 3 PSET questions
2. Do 4 CSE120 questions
3. Finish up the Alarm test & task 2
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Reflection: When we were at universals francis asked a theoretical question to the kids, "would you rather have a dad who paid so much attention to you to the point of embarrassing you in front of your friends all the time, or a dad who didn't pay attention to you at all?" Me & my sister were contemplating & my little cousin said something like "I already have that." which was lk depressing. I see it really often when someone has a kid really young or an unplanned kid and they end up leaving the kid w/someone else due to lack of resources/maturity ionno. But then they have a kid later on in life when they're more prepared and they take care of that child but continue to leave the other child alone. I wonder how that feels to see your parent caring for this other kid when they never paid attention to you.
Grateful:
1. Thankful for my parents. My parents had me really young and they probably would be happier apart than together and have broken up a long time ago if they didn't have me. My dad was in a different country and could've dipped. But with my dad and all his vices, he really does care a lot about me and my sister in his own way.
2. Thankful that I did not get locked out yesterday. I was SO close!!
3. Thankful that I was able to spend time w/Francis yesterday and that he was in a really good mood.
MIT:
same as yesterday |
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