My first entry engaged! Exciting. Wow. I have come a long way. I passed last week. I just missed the deadline to enter my progress. All in all, I really understand the chemistry of my body. I loved our meal at Michael in Winnetka. I could taste every flavor. I chose not to ruin the buds with champagne. But eyeballing portions when the food is so delicious or too small to pack is still a struggle. A recognition which is an accomplishment in itself but a work in progress. Sharing dessert was a great decision. It is the few bites that count, not the calorie bomb that makes me nervous at day's end. And boy does it feel good to have a flat belly and appetite the next day! Work in progress to remember that towards meal end. I will attempt this VERY conscious feat tonite at dinner with Aisha. That counts as my WIN. Also I would love to enjoy Greektown with Tom tomorrow with appetite. There is also a chemical reaction -there HAS to be- that makes me want to end a meal ultimately satisfied. It is typically sugar related! And it has to be novel...what I realize mid-week my body "craves."< br />Trying to lose the gum habit too. Doing well. Keep going.....
24 Oct 2010 03:18 AM
I must buckle up and make the last four weeks of the contract flawless. Though I'm proud of my efforts I need to feel that I was more tha 50% successful. The final countdown...
24 Oct 2010 03:05 AM
yay...i passed this weeek. it was a rough start to the week after aisha's wedding, and mid week i was going physically stir crazy. i ended up eating a bunch of nuts wthich quelled my appetite for the galderma ditka's LAB meeting. i created room for dessert both thurs and fri night after dinner w linda/jill at butterfly. i was normal at the halloween party. ehjoyed pigs/blanket without feeling deprived. the buns/hoisin sauce without the buns, and lastly the RIP desserts. very enjoyable. didn't feel deprived. then had dinner at mia francesca's. enjoyed the chicken/bread/potato es. and bite of dessert...and gum. i feel good now. i have to clearly remind myself feeling tweaked the next day sucks. tomorrow tastes better. gosh, I LOVE being able to enjoy food the next day. that Has to be better and enuff motivation to stop grazing. perhaps it is truly chemical, but i need a good 2 hours of eating and noshing to feel sated. still trying to understand that, but in the meantime, i must accept gum's role.
9 Oct 2010 10:29 AM
Yes, I did good this week. Partly because we went out just yesterday to Drake's International Club. That was soooo delightful! It seems that I am the only one who really enjoyed the meal. The scallops/bacon/corn was absolutely delightful. I "behaved" all the way through. Shared the apple dessert with Barb, but then started grazing on the cookies. Yes, they were there, and it is so Final to finalize a meal. Not hard. Just the thought of trying to get used to the end...still. But I MUST make an effort to remember which is amazing in itself. Tomorrow Tastes Better. And not just better, TRUE. Tomorow tastes true. I love having breakfast appetite. I enjoyed every bite and left the OK bites behind. So proud. Tonight is a good nite, hence I filled this out in advance.
25 Sep 2010 10:09 AM
I have failed out of admission the last couple of times, albeit minor, they were still failures to learn from. I "snuck" a bite of those sinful cupcakes in after we came back from Tru. I do understand my rationalization: i wasn't going to eat them after that, might as well knock it out. The only problem is I knocked myself out with so many sweets and TWO of the post-dinner parting cakes before I even made it in the car. Coursed meals with long inbetween times are no longer exciting or "healthy" for me. I get antsy and ruminate and don't feel quite full or SATISFIED. That's the word. I really need satisfying meals. EBC last night. OMG that teryaki tilpia....now THAT was satisfying. I was as happy as a clam and just delighted myself post meal with my wine and some berries. Now that's a new thing I discovered about my eating habits. I already know wine distorts my tastebuds and I try not to drink during my entree. But post dinner it CAN represent the end with some fruit and a bit of cream. Maybe even cheese. I absolutely had no taste for Toms' chocolate coconut ice cream scoop, though I may have been all over it in the past. The fact that our last dessert at EBC tasted a bit preservative-y also kept temptation away. Anyway, I am really happy with things. Gum helps but that still sugar, that somehow my body feels it needs. Need to understand those craving still.....
4 Sep 2010 10:29 AM
i "snuck" in a bit of fruit after my tues meeting @ smith/wollensky.i was so proud of myself that tuesday! i absolutely did NOT miss the wine bc i remembered that i would barely taste that heavenly sea bass "killing time" drinking wine in between courses. that unappetizing cheesecake made the fruit plate so inviting.i HAD to taste the mash potatoes but they were not delicious. @ ebc that week,i could have easily skipped the banana foster thing but tom wanted dessert. i am not blaming him. i guess i wanted something too. had i known i'd indulge, i probably wouldn't have eaten all my tuna. next time i need to preplan better that transition.or just be firm in my CHOICE to skip dessert...or at least have a bite/two.
28 Aug 2010 11:38 PM
i made choices @ the summer travel.indulged/enjo yed the sangria sacrificing sweets. kept to time as well.in a buffet or bountiful setting,can't lose sight of the goal. monitor cocktails carefully. think consequences...most important,IS THIS ENJOYABLE?
21 Aug 2010 02:46 PM
Have been afraid to get on scale the last couple of weeks.Yes,I have overindulged and at times I just feel bloated. But I've been behaving. Gum takes the edge of. Even if I indulge in large pieces of dessert. My new thing is to really experience that "fullness" then stop eating. It should help because there is always something else (usually dessert) coming...
14 Aug 2010 05:52 PM
oh...it's so hard sometimes. it's a lack of satisfaction, but i persevere. last night @ the dnner crawl i was unapologetic for every morsel i put in my mouth (though it was a lot). i love good food. even down to jeff's bday cake. just no more after that
7 Aug 2010 02:33 PM
i will give myself a pass this week. yes, i've been indulging in dessert since tuesday night and i have to REEL myself in but hey, i'm following the rules otherwise. what's w me and sugar anyway???? tues i couldn't pull myself away at the clubhouse, wednes joyce clark's carrot cake: 4 PIECES!!!! i mean, seriously!,thurs @ sepia, that was a HUGE piece of chocolate cake, last night at Ditka's another HUGE piece of chocolate cake. Tonight, Spiaggia's. I know it's small portions so I am probably OK. but let's see. I really am curious about Monday's results. I've indulged clearly. didn't feel like i overdid it. Can we stay on target????? Is it really how I feel that parallel's the physical outcome? We shall see....
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