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No Pornography
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Week 36 of 52
bignigey01 commits to:
No masturbation for a year
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Next report due:
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My Commitment Journal
 bignigey01
May 23, 2026, 7:13 AM
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| Becoming a daily routine to browse through porn but I feel I can reliably do this without acting on my urges now. It has been running up my mobile data which is becoming expensive in terms of topping up. Seeing images and gifs of facials seem par for the course. Whether it’s Peter north, Jonni darkko, Jules Jordan, lex Steele, k klixen etc. | |
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bignigey01
May 16, 2026, 7:36 AM
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| Strongest my urges have been in a while with me looking daily through porn but still not acting on my urges. Without a doubt, I’ll definitely beed HiCBT to strengthen the nerve to approach women, as I simply cannot do it on my own. I wish there was some form of an accountability system out there to force me to approach women. Seeing a dating coach is cool but that costs a great deal of money. I’ve convinced myself that I’ll have to experience an anxiety attack in order to approach women. Simply because I’m terrified of being rejected on account of things naturally being awkward. In any case, I’m confident I’m able to resist my urges between now and September. | |
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bignigey01
May 9, 2026, 10:04 AM
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| Not as many urges this week. Still been surfing through porn images, mainly k klixen. I’ve also imagined the likes of Lela star, Bella Bellz, amy Andersen and Richelle Ryan. I’ve been over indulging more on food lately though. However I don’t think it’s solely from resisting masterbating urges as I feel I would’ve been going through this even if I wasn’t resisting. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately though as I’ve been told I may need surgery which puts further pressure on things. Still, I’m proud of how far I’ve came in my sobriety. | |
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bignigey01
May 2, 2026, 6:59 PM
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| Haven’t had many urges this week. It feels as though I’ve exhausted all the dopamine of porn I would like to see. Stress wise, this week hasn’t been as bad. I’ve gotten rid of YouTube, my PS5 and the dating apps to detox from them - Instagram is next. Still, with less things to preoccupy me, it may prove challenging. I recently opened up to a CBT therapist from uni about my pornography addiction and the reflexive instincts to look at female physiques. The therapist said they would need to discuss this with their supervisor but does not feel it needs escalating- I hope so. Even whilst writing this, I’m experiencing intrusive thoughts of the potential consequences of telling people. I’d rather die before there was even a remote possibility of me acting on my thoughts related to young people. The last year has finally affected me in terms of how pornography has required my brain to the point of it ruining my romantic life. | |
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